This is happened when I was 12 years old. A new teacher moved to my school, He's so fu*king hot and handsome, but the best is his incredible ass (even my girl friend envy that teacher ass ;D). But, shit happened. I have to move from the school because my father work had assignment in other place. The saddest part was, I didn't even have a chance enter his class.
But, a miracle happened about 3 months next. I found my "ex teacher" in my house when I go back from my new school (it was far away place from my first place). He was actually my sister friends when they were in college. He came to my house as my sister advice. He needed a place to stay while he had job related business in my town. I was so excited and happy because he actually know me. He said that he "saw" me back in my first school.
So, the lust of my teenager gayness begin to toke me all over. I was gay in the closet at the time, and even didn't realize that I'm gay but I do realize that I like other man.
At the evening, when he was in the shower. I stood near the door of the bathroom so I could hear, at least, mater running. It was enough to turn me on. The crazy part was at the midnight. He was sleep alone in the guest room and I sneak up to his room, without a sound, and he I could saw that he's fall deep in sleep. So, I kneel beside the bad and watching him in his sleep. I couldn't help myself and my hand begin to find a way under the sheet to his private part.
But something stopped me. I retreated my hand not even half way to the goal. I still can feel that fear that stopped me. So, I just sat there, complete numb, and guilty begin to eat me. I just sat there for maybe 2 hours. And finally left the room thinking that I had done something terribly wrong.
Up to now, I still cant figure it out what happened to me at the time. I was so close to something that I really wanted. But, what would happened if I touched him? It could change my life forever or worse. Or, it could ended up that we're on the bed together. God knows.
One thing I know for sure now. "Careful what you wish for."
What do you think?
I am wishing for the grandson of the patient i am taking care of to express his desires on my virgin hole but the dawn thing is not happening!
Am i so ugly??? 
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