@thetmstone: My, struck a nerve there haven't we. You don't need to tell me anything because I search and am able to figure out how the porn industry works way better than you do. I'm only saying that there's a thin line between wondering every once in a while if someone is doing okay and stalking. You went your way to even find his brother, that to me sounds definitely over the top. okay

@motri: taking the ielts this year Good luck! :love:

@Eridanos: what does codfish taste like? i dont think i've tried it before. Is the red in the pics i googled tomato sauce? the croquembouche is actually a holiday dare from a friend of mine. since i wasnt originally planning not to do desserts this time around since i'll be cooking a lot. @brianboru72: thank you. i do try and do something special on holidays when i'm in charge of the menu. yup we'll be in manila. sadly stranger danger LOL mmmm  queso de bola…...

@Cuervos626: It's from Aabe Kou (About), Gekkou Saimin Zenpen for the twin part and Chuuhen for the rest of the story. i actually already found this a while back, but thanks anyway for replying~  ;D now i just wish there was a sequal to chuuhen, it felt…....unfinished.

@Ellis: Sourdough bread, spread with basil pesto, topped with sun-dried tomatoes and a layer of mozzarella cheese–broiled for about a minute and a half. i'm not really a fan of open faced sandwiches, but that looks delicious.

@dpetry: What? You won't have a relationship experience with someone you pay because since you're paying them, it will be forced. You can pay to fuck, but you can't pay and expect something close to an honest relationship. No shit sherlock. I'm not doing it because i want a relationship with the call-boy. I'm doing it so i can have an entertaining comfortable time with someone one which ends in assured sexy time, with none of the hassle or let downs of a hook-up. Besides my past few hook-ups have been disappointing to say the least. i need a palate cleanser of sorts. @brianboru72: I agree that you can't pay for an honest experience- it will be an illusion- BUT- depending on the person you pay and how well you plan it out, it seems to me that it's possible to create enough of basics of the relationship experience. They can do the things with you that you'd expect a boyfriend to do- be good company, laugh at your jokes, and hold your hand as you go for a walk. which is exactly what i'm after right now. something to temporarily distract me from all the stress these past few months. a fake brief relationship wherein i can enjoy the benefits of having company i can have sex with but none of the hassle of actually maintaining a relationship. @brianboru72: In fact, the geisha of Japan have turned this into a whole art form of sorts. yeah yeah we all watched memoirs of a geisha.  :blownose: @GabrielK: A friend of mine hired a callboy for this for a long term engagement (not to confuse with a houseboy arrangement). In this friend's case it was his way to get back into the saddle after a serious heart operation and he experienced erectyle disfunction and serious trust issues in general. For him it was something that helped him getting his groove back successfully. wow i hope your friend made a full recovery. i get the first 2 conditions being connected but why the trust issues?