I hate being gay so much

warpaint

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.

Domosuke

@warpaint:

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.

How dare you say that. A boyfriend will help. I want a man.

You can't change being gay.

I'm not changing myself.

I want a boyfriend. So all of that is bullshit.

csrdan

in my experience, one does not simply "get a boyfriend"

you need to be friends first at the least. so go make some gay friends and see where that goes

if you end up with a guy with who u share nothing in common other than being homos, i promise you: it will be miserable and you might aswell just go for a grindr bump or something. presumably that's not what you want.

as an aspie i can relate maybe that making friends isn't so easy, let alone somone to be comfortable enough with to actually open up a real relationship.

more importantly: learn to love yourself man… if you can't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?

that very self-love/confidence is a pretty big attractive force. if you shine (in the right places) they will come. just own yourself.

you say you hate yourself, you hate being gay, but don't want to change. there is here a contradiction! at least one of these is not true.

PS: this is probably not the best place to look for love

Domosuke

@csrdan:

in my experience, one does not simply "get a boyfriend"

you need to be friends first at the least. so go make some gay friends and see where that goes

if you end up with a guy with who u share nothing in common other than being homos, i promise you: it will be miserable and you might aswell just go for a grindr bump or something. presumably that's not what you want.

as an aspie i can relate maybe that making friends isn't so easy, let alone somone to be comfortable enough with to actually open up a real relationship.

more importantly: learn to love yourself man… if you can't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?

that very self-love/confidence is a pretty big attractive force. if you shine (in the right places) they will come. just own yourself.

you say you hate yourself, you hate being gay, but don't want to change. there is here a contradiction! at least one of these is not true.

PS: this is probably not the best place to look for love

I don't want friends. From minute and second one I look at him, he's mine and he's my man, and he's gonna be my man in my life.

Fuck that. I love opposite men. If he's not a racist asshole (even then. If he loves me. he can be racist lol) then I don't care.

I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?

raphjd

I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?

What sites ban you for that?

Maybe you're banned for another reason?

Tomkevin

@warpaint:

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.

Are you taking notes, Domosuke? First of all, there's nothing wrong with being black, gay, or autistic. You are a human being. Your conditions (and I don't believe in mental "illnesses") are what make you YOU. Own it. We live in a time where you can get almost anything you want with the least bit of effort. Btw there are LOTS of ways to get a boyfriend or maybe a fuckbud, which I swear can be just as good. Use the Internet, go out to bars/clubs, try Grindr..

Domosuke

@Tomkevin:

@warpaint:

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.

Are you taking notes, Domosuke? First of all, there's nothing wrong with being black, gay, or autistic. You are a human being. Your conditions (and I don't believe in mental "illnesses") are what make you YOU. Own it. We live in a time where you can get almost anything you want with the least bit of effort. Btw there are LOTS of ways to get a boyfriend or maybe a fuckbud, which I swear can be just as good. Use the Internet, go out to bars/clubs, try Grindr..

No I'm not taking notes. He's an asshole, and fuck him.

He's telling me not to be myself.

I don't like bars and clubs. I just had a bad experience last night at one.

I just want a fucking boyfriend, and I have so many crushes on straight guys and asshole gay guys who don't want me.

I just think it's time to die. I'm sorry. Fuck.

Domosuke

@raphjd:

I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?

What sites ban you for that?

Maybe you're banned for another reason?

I don't want to list names, as I don't think I'm allowed to. But yes, I was banned for being black and gay.

trukr

Sorry to hear you're so depressed. Maybe a change in medication can help if you're taking a prescription? That might help you see the world differently, more positively, and may attract more of they sort of guys you like to you. Please forget about suicide, things can get better for you at any moment. There's someone out there for you, believe that! I don't know what kind of guys you like, or where to tell you to look, maybe a group/club of guys who share similar interests if you haven't tried that yet?

Domosuke

@trukr:

Sorry to hear you're so depressed. Maybe a change in medication can help if you're taking a prescription? That might help you see the world differently, more positively, and may attract more of they sort of guys you like to you. Please forget about suicide, things can get better for you at any moment. There's someone out there for you, believe that! I don't know what kind of guys you like, or where to tell you to look, maybe a group/club of guys who share similar interests if you haven't tried that yet?

I don't take medication, and I don't want to. That's my choice.

Well I like opposite guys, as you could tell from another thread I posted. With for some reason Jewish and Russian men I find the most appealing really.
https://community.gaytor.rent/index.php?topic=55895.0

I'm just trying it really hard to stay motivated and happy.

I like opposite men.

I have hobbies, which is hip hop dancing, breakdancing and doing gymnastics and I like hip hop and disco and urban music, but I don't want men in those hobbies.

I want opposite guys.

Domosuke

Fuck.

thetmstone

I seriously don't know if I have to take this thread seriously or not.

trukr

@Domosuke:

I don't take medication, and I don't want to. That's my choice.

Well I like opposite guys, as you could tell from another thread I posted. With for some reason Jewish and Russian men I find the most appealing really.
https://community.gaytor.rent/index.php?topic=55895.0

I'm just trying it really hard to stay motivated and happy.

I like opposite men.

I have hobbies, which is hip hop dancing, breakdancing and doing gymnastics and I like hip hop and disco and urban music, but I don't want men in those hobbies.

I want opposite guys.

Yeah…it’s your choice if you wanna take medication or not. I was just thinking that there might be some medication that could help you feel better, but sometimes the side effects aren’t worth it.

How much do you prefer a guy to be opposite of you?
You said you don’t want to share the same hobbies, what about other interests, beliefs, opinions?

Domosuke

@trukr:

@Domosuke:

I don't take medication, and I don't want to. That's my choice.

Well I like opposite guys, as you could tell from another thread I posted. With for some reason Jewish and Russian men I find the most appealing really.
https://community.gaytor.rent/index.php?topic=55895.0

I'm just trying it really hard to stay motivated and happy.

I like opposite men.

I have hobbies, which is hip hop dancing, breakdancing and doing gymnastics and I like hip hop and disco and urban music, but I don't want men in those hobbies.

I want opposite guys.

Yeah…it’s your choice if you wanna take medication or not. I was just thinking that there might be some medication that could help you feel better, but sometimes the side effects aren’t worth it.

How much do you prefer a guy to be opposite of you?
You said you don’t want to share the same hobbies, what about other interests, beliefs, opinions?

You would have to give specific examples.

There was a gay/bi guy I had a deep crush on, through a video chat room I used to visit, and he's very pale and Slavic/Russian looking, and he's kinda pudgy too. He is very racist, and has a very odd vibe about him. He's really into art and sculpting, and using fire art. He supposedly lives in the United States now, but he's not originally from there. I've talked to him and he has made fun of the way I look and said very racist and homophobic things to me.

Now ordinarily, really me and this guy would be so incompatible it's not funny. But to me I became so infatuated with this guy, and the fact he's gay/bi himself, I really wanted him.

I feel if I wasn't black and gay, things could have worked out. I don't know.

chinabxy

@Domosuke:

https://community.gaytor.rent/index.php?topic=56038

I hate being gay
I hate being black
I hate being feminine
I hate how nobody loves me.

I don't have anybody to turn to. At all.

I feel porn is all I have, and porn is good. It is. But I wish I had a boyfriend.

I feel like I'm never gonna be happy.

I'm' 27 and I've never had a boyfriend and I'm just getting impatient.

Ugh.

I'm really thinking of suicide or similar and worse things.

to be honest, I am 30 years old, and I am still a virgin. I never had a boyfriend, and I am not coming out, both my parents and relatives and colleagues are put tons of pressure on me about marriage, but I am still alive, I dont want to be married a person I dislike. so I am still signle. still waiting. despite of those pressure.
Be a man, and be brave. life will be better.

Domosuke

@chinabxy:

@Domosuke:

https://community.gaytor.rent/index.php?topic=56038

I hate being gay
I hate being black
I hate being feminine
I hate how nobody loves me.

I don't have anybody to turn to. At all.

I feel porn is all I have, and porn is good. It is. But I wish I had a boyfriend.

I feel like I'm never gonna be happy.

I'm' 27 and I've never had a boyfriend and I'm just getting impatient.

Ugh.

I'm really thinking of suicide or similar and worse things.

to be honest, I am 30 years old, and I am still a virgin. I never had a boyfriend, and I am not coming out, both my parents and relatives and colleagues are put tons of pressure on me about marriage, but I am still alive, I dont want to be married a person I dislike. so I am still signle. still waiting. despite of those pressure.
Be a man, and be brave. life will be better.

BULL FUCKING SHIT.

you just spouted so much depressing shit. You said, "My family is possibly homophhobic and I'm not out. They are pressuring you to marry a girl. Just hold on, life gets better"

How the fuck is that shit supposed to motivate me?

How fucking dare you say "It will get better."

It won't. I had a really bad day today. To where if I a had a boyfriend I probably wouldn't be feeling suicidal right now.

I'm just done. I want a boyfriend and can't get one.

Life fucking won't get better. I waited too damn long.

I'm 27 and you're 30 and I can't wait that long sorry. Ugh.

dzirlo

so u opened a thread where you just want to contradict everyone no matter how helpful what they say is.
that's ok too to, if you just need a virtual punching bag, maybe that helps you.

Domosuke

@dzirlo:

so u opened a thread where you just want to contradict everyone no matter how helpful what they say is.
that's ok too to, if you just need a virtual punching bag, maybe that helps you.

That, and everyone has given shitty advice, including you, by only egging me on.

dzirlo

thanks for proving my point. gosh this is too easy…

warpaint

No need to add anything ;D
I'll just leave this here.

@raphjd:

I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?

Maybe you're banned for another reason?

@dzirlo:

thanks for proving my point. gosh this is too easy…

@Domosuke:

I just think it's time to die.