And if you do you just have to stop moping after him and get over it as quickly as possible.
Every day you spend on him is a day wasted.

Jason is nothing but a bi-curious church monkey who's using you to find some edge.
So maybe he will fuck some guys, and maybe you can get him to fuck you.
But he's gonna marry a girl, and he's never gonna love you the same way that you love him.

First, you should know whether you want to keep the friendship with him if you action failed. if you want, your influence step should be very slow, and in that case I am not sure whether you could keep that feeling that long.

Second, get close to him, play game with him, care about his life and work, but not too much, try to make him feel that you are his close friend.

Third, after being friend, try to let him accept who you are, if he is a homophobic, then you should give up immediately. Because sometimes his homophobic feelings will transform to violent and he also may feel that you cheated him.

Fourth, if he can accept you, try to influence his life habit, and when you can occupy most of his time and normal life, at this time, I think you are very close to the success.

Finally, I do not recommend you to change him. Because when he have to face the pressure from his family and society, he might give up very easy. And all your work and love, at that time, is nothing but trash.

What I discovered after a lot of thought was that during that period of time, I was feeling very distant from the gay scene; I'm not into bars or clubs, am rather plain looking and overweight. In other words, I was feeling very insecure about my looks, body, and social skills, and found trying to get to know other gay guys VERY intimidating.

I was also in a period of self-sabotage (job, etc) where I was so afraid of failing at something that I would either A) opt out and not even try, or B) do something that would end the situation soon after the start. The logic is: the best way to avoid failure is to not participate in the first place. I'm sure we've all done this to ourselves at one time or another.

In the case of falling for straight men, I did it because it was SAFE. I already knew what the outcome would be (nothing) and so indulging in this was a way for me to feel emotional without the risk of having to eventually go through an actual rejection. Trying to connect with a gay guy was far riskier because there was the possibility of some degree of success - and in my own insecure mind, almost a certainty of failure.

I'm not saying this true for everyone else, but I found out that this was my truth.

I know I will be able to move on after he finishes his contract here and move back to the HQ.

I feel very happy every time I am around him. I think It's just a good feeling to be a secret admirer.

@2222:

Sure, its though, been there, but the worst is loving a gay to pretend to be straight.

Or a guy who's so closeted that he never intends to acknowledge you in public as anything other than your frien

That hurts so much worse.  Falling for a straight man is just yearning for the unobtainable, but that's like having something that could, should and would be better, but you just aren't worth it to him…
That's how I felt about it anyway.

Sure, its though, been there, but the worst is loving a gay to pretend to be straight.

Or a guy who's so closeted that he never intends to acknowledge you in public as anything other than your frien

TL;DR= clinging to the hopeful belief that any straight man can be turned gay/bi for you is just as offensive and close minded as the religious nuts that believe any gay/bi man can be turned straight for Jesus. They're here, they're NOT queer, we better get used to it.