But I sort of was able to gain the power to realize why people do the things they do.

Being a feminine boyish black gay man in his late 20s, who's always felt excluded from society, I just learn to pick up on common things and patterns.

For example, I learned that men who are always picking up trash in the street, hold the door open for others, give their seat up on a crowded train, guys who you can go up and ask for help or directions and give them to you are gentleman and nice.

Guys who litter, guys who don't hold the door open when walking into a building, guys who spread their legs and crotch wide open when sitting on a train, guys who you go up and ask for help give you a shitty or rude comeback, are usually assholes and not nice.

Just stuff like that.

I thought my cock would get bigger.   :blownose:

By.. itself?

I'll let you know when it happens.

Seriously, my biggest surprise was finding out how little it matters when the guy you are crushing on doesn't like you.  When you're a teenager it feels like the world is going to end or that you'll die if someone you've 'fallen in love with' doesn't like you.  But the world doesn't end, you keep on living, and in a short time you find out what you thought was your  :love: getting ripped out was merely a scratch on your ego.

That's a big step.. on growing up!

Seriously, my biggest surprise was finding out how little it matters when the guy you are crushing on doesn't like you.  When you're a teenager it feels like the world is going to end or that you'll die if someone you've 'fallen in love with' doesn't like you.  But the world doesn't end, you keep on living, and in a short time you find out what you thought was your  :love: getting ripped out was merely a scratch on your ego.